So lately i’ve been stressing, big time, about the future. What I’m doing next weekend, where I’ll be headed next quarter, where I’ll be working in a couple of months, will I be working in a couple of months? I think a lot of people in my situation would be doing the same. Twenty-somethings striving to make something of themselves, shit, make rent is more like it. I think the worst part of it all is that we forget the reasons for why we do what we do. Our age is the age of creation, the amount of “creatives” in this generation, in comparison to the last few, are through the roof. We do it because we love to express ourselves through art, music, design, type, acting, fashion. Whatever. We forget we go into these because we have a passion for them and get caught up in the fast pace of our world. Slow down. Not all of us can be the next big thing, we can’t all create the next trend but we can remember to put the passion we once had back into our work. Whatever has fueled it in the past is still there and we gotta remember it’s still there, just buried in all that garbage we’ve been filling up over buzzfeed, mashable, twitter, and instagram.
To realize your future is somebody else’s past…
Something I just realized and was going to slap onto my Facebook is, it’s not the ones who did it first who are remembered but, the ones who did it best. Who crafted it best. Who used the best truth.
I’m going to try and remember to stop stressing over creating something new and get back to the old me. The one who did it because it he loved the craft and the detail.
California, you are one amazing state. I can’t wait to revisit you and see what more you have to offer. For those of you who haven’t been following me already, or aren’t close friends and family, I’ve been living in San Francisco for the past couple of months. An amazing opportunity for schooling that I couldn’t pass up. After years of trying to find a way to get there, my escape route from the east coast turmoils were screaming at me to take them, so I did. Check out my earlier posts to see the trip there!
Okay, anyways, California! So much had happened during my time there. I made a lot of new discoveries about myself as a person and as a creative. I didn’t like life for a while, too much trouble, and was looking for the easy route – fuck that. The easy route would have left me weak and there’s so much more for me in this world, I need to take those risks and to scare myself so I can grow. Something I’ve really been able to follow over the past few months.
I’m writing around in circles because there’s more to be said, but I’m not sure if I’m ready to say it. I wish all the best to my friends as we start parting ways to find what else is out there for us, can’t wait to come across your paths once again. Especially, you.
Woah, this life hits you hard. This is a life talk post because shit’s going down in my life and I don’t know – just have to write about this shit.
This weekend was my birthday weekend! I shared it with two of my best buds here in San Francisco with me. Best part was when we went out and had the best meal I could ever have requested at this delicious place called Harris on Van Ness.
So I think I have posted this already, but I’m not sure. I dropped my choices for Quarter Away as Paris, Chicago, and New York & like everybody else in the school, are going a little insane until they learn about the outcomes of this. I could really go anywhere, I could even stay here If I have to but the thing is finding an apartment after this is going to be awful. Bloody awful. I’ll get by with something but with everybody splitting it’s going to be tougher then it’s been yet. That’s life though, we need to keep challenging ourselves and take what is dealt to us.
Tomorrow is the start of midterms, so It’s time to buckle down once again. There’s a list of classes that I want to start making major improvements in, if not the work – the work ethic is the target. Which is sad because I used to be the hardest working student back in college, I guess it’s just learning how to get in the groove of things and in the Advertising World, it’s almost impossible to find that groove.
I don’t know, I continuously blame social media as a blame for these confusing feelings of depression and anxiety. If only I could take a break from them more often! Or find a way to spend more time on them… still can’t decide which one is more important at the moment.
Alrighty, I’ve gotta go and get some rest for the week to come. Sorry about that rant but I had to a couple things out there – some day I’ll start posting everything that’s bothering me on this baby. Some day.. maybe.